Down

I don't want to complain or write about my down days, but after thinking about it, I decided I might as well, hopefully I do loose weight and I can come back and laugh about these days. It's actually been two down days, and by down I mean, days that I really can't see myself loosing all this weight and just feel hopeless. Yesterday I went to Zumba. It is really a fun class, I don't know anybody there, but I really enjoy the music. I haven't gotten new shoes, so my feet hurt afterward, but what bummed me out was a glimpse that I got of myself in the mirror. During the class I stay in the back and avoid the mirrors, well, I saw myself at some point during the class, and I looked so big! I know that I am overweight, but when I saw myself, I just felt so sad. Sad because I did this, I did this to my body and it is so hard to loose this weight. It's been almost two months since I began my journey and feel like I haven't lost any weight. It is annoying to me that it is such a big part of my life, trying to eat right, make sure that I don't over eat, make sure that I work out.... it is really hard to shake off a bad day and think tomorrow will be better. Tomorrow I will eat better, I will work out harder. I know that it is too soon to really see results, but, it is so frustrating!!